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Last night I dreamed about a roller skating rink, the one I used to go to in Minneapolis. Well, first, I was with my family, but I needed to talk to Terry, so I decided to call her. I received her voice mail recording, in which she was saying to J. specifically that she had this summer project that was keeping her way too busy, but once it was over, she said in this sweet way, "I'll fuck you... I love you." And I thought, well she really does love her. Then Michelle's dad was dropping us off at the roller skating rink. As he drove off, I realized I left my shoes and socks in the car and began yelling frantically for him to stop and telling Michelle to call him. But then Michelle had my shoes and socks. Inside it was a party for Collette. It was me, Collette, Michelle, and Terry - and a few random people and the DJ. It was a birthday party for Collette. Michelle gave me a pair of skates that were size 9 but they fit okay. But the DJ wouldn't play any good music or turn it up. I was skating by myself, but trying to skate fast and do some tricks, but it felt weird like when you try to run in dreams but it's slow motion. I was trying to have fun though. But suddenly I stopped and knelt down, and I had a flashback like Dexter on the last episode of season one, but I don't know what I remembered, and I started sobbing. The memory had something to do with my mom, I think. Another memory had to do with the skating rink itself, and one time I went there with my childhood friend Levina, aka Coko, for her birthday (Of course! Having the same nickname as Collette, my adult friend who was there in my dream, but my childhood friend Coko was a little black girl from down the street). That time I was the only white person in the place, and I couldn't keep up with Coko or she didn't want to skate with me. All the black people were skating so fast and dancing too and doing all these tricks like skating on one leg. I admired them but I felt scared and alone. I tried to hang out in the bathroom and wanted to go home but I couldn't. Later in my dream I was upstairs in the rink and there were mats on the floor. I asked Collette (Coko) if she wanted to wrestle and she did, so we went for it. But then I hurt her. Then I realized I hadn't seen Michelle in a long time and started searching frantically for her. I was looking through this bubble window onto the skating rink. Someone said to me, "You're way too protective of her." And I said, "But I haven't seen her in 45 minutes, I'm worried and need to make sure she's okay."