toilets in dreams

One of my reoccurring dreams has to do with toilets. I have to urinate, defecate, or masturbate, and I cannot find a private place for this - someone or more than one person keeps walking in on me, the door won't close or has no door, or - the toilet is so dirty and disgusting that I cannot use it. Last night I dreamed that I was in a bar and looking for the bathroom, and it turned out to be an outhouse but inside, upstairs. Oddly enough, I was wearing a skirt and high heels. The toilet itself was filthy and overflowing with a mountain of urine-soaked toilet paper, which also covered the adjacent wall and toilet paper dispenser. For some reason there was no feces though. There was no way to sit on that mound of soiled paper, so I tried to stand over it, but I was urinating all over myself before I even got in position. I was peeing all over my high heels. I really couldn't stop and decided not to try to stop. Then these girls opened the door and saw me. I came halfway out of the "outhouse" but I continued to urinate so I went back inside, but the door remained open. I was gesturing as if this couldn't be helped. Later, I was looking for those shoes. They looked different when I found them, like a weird color and a larger size, and they were naturally soaked. I tried to dry them off but it was useless. Then some of my high school friends were there. Then my sister Cary was there and it was me, Cary, Michelle, and her brother Chris, but it was a different version of him, younger and actually a different person. We were trying to set him up with Carolyn. The four of us began running circular laps around this bar, using staircases on either end of the room and running the lengths on both floors. Then I was with a nurse and a doctor and they were talking about Michelle. They said, "Who are you?" And I said, "I'm her partner," and so they decided to tell me. They were going to give her a urine test and also change her medications. Then I woke up in real life and said to Michelle, "They're trying to trick me." So I must have had another dream that I cannot remember.

What does urine symbolize in dreams?? Usually in this dream of mine there is a lot of feces involved, or masturbation. So I understand that as having something to do with my early development and also possibly sexual boundary violations of myself relegated to infantile amnesia. But urine and high heels? I have to do some research.

PS. I just read the last line from yesterday's blog in which I referred to people "peeing their pants," and I wonder if my dream was pointing to my feelings upon having recently received negative feedback about this blog and about my public writing in general. It is unfortunate that when I reveal myself it gives others the power to judge and misunderstand me because I hate being misunderstood and judged. But why the skirt and heels?