letting go

I don’t know if this is Zen or not, but this morning I keep thinking about how actions inspired by neutral or even good intentions can be the cause of bad things, as much as bad intentions. For instance in an election, perhaps the “better” candidate wins because the apathetic public does the “right” thing by voting for once, then the leader is assassinated and subsequently the country plunges into recession, depression, civil war? Or a smaller scale, say you hold the elevator door open for someone and are kind and friendly to them and the elevator gets stuck or falls to the basement? And maybe the philanthropic organizations and social services only serve to keep more people alive longer, contributing to overpopulation; in fact all humanitarian efforts have that effect, which in turn causes more people to suffer because of limited resources? Maybe it would be better if a plague came and wiped most of us out and only a small number lived on to have a better life than would be possible for eight billion people. The more of us that live, the more animals die and the earth’s resources are depleted and destroyed. I guess some old 19th century philosopher(s) said that the railroad system was a sign of the earth's coming end. He (they?) called the network like the galaxy or network of the devil or something. This idea was mentioned in The Idiot, but I can't remember the exact quote. Anyways, the idea was right in a way because industrialization has led to the situation with limited fuel, pollution, extinct species, the ozone layer, global warming, etc. So naturally other people have considered this problem, which is fine, but I’m not having a nihilistic reaction and I’m not saying there’s no point in doing right or wrong or even believing in good and bad. You have to live as rightly as possible, and I’m trying to. I don’t recycle everything and like I’m saying, this morning I recognize that even if I did, maybe something bad would come of that anyway. It’s impossible to understand all the possible results of every little move we make. Like, I could be a perfect employee and still get laid off. Or I could violate every rule of common professional decency and keep my job forever. I just came back from doing some freestyle yoga in the conference room. It’s Friday. I’ve nothing more to say since it’s all been said and it is highly unnecessary to anyone.