Trash

Last night we played at Trash bar in Williamsburg, and although we played well, only our girlfriends listened. When we first got there the room was full and I was surprised and excited to play for strangers. Then the other band called Deathface, which was not heavy metal as you might guess but a regular rock band who were okay, they were fine, and they packed that room - anyways they finished and EVERYONE left, except our girlfriends and four or five people at the bar, who didn't really pay attention. The band that would play after us arrived in the middle but didn't listen. I know because I usually watch everyone in the audience. I do not look at the floor or the ceiling but right out at people. It was so sad to see everyone leaving while we were setting up! Well, I don't help set up. I sit on Michelle's lap and she tells me wonderful things in my ear about how cute and talented I supposedly am, haha. I am so glad she came, despite being on day one of the flow again, just like at the last show! This was the worst attended show we've ever played. It was also perhaps the best sounding show we ever played. I tried to maintain a sense of humor and actually I felt way more positive than I did after playing at Otto's in that bright ass room with my friends so visible to me, way too intimate, way nerve-wracking. Last night, the guys in my band said from now on we're only playing on weekends, so I have to cancel the upcoming Tuesday night at FB. My friend offered me a midnight spot there, acting like it was the best one, although we declined and asked for the 10 o'clock, which he gave us, but now we don't want that either. It's funny how the "best" band is supposed to go last, but both times recently, there were even less people for the band after us. Last night the "main show" had two people in there. We certainly didn't stay since they didn't even pay attention to us. Anyways I heard them when I was in the bathroom and it sounded boring, and they were blasting it. Mark was very depressed when going home. I wasn't very, because I was still proud of not fucking up the two new songs and not being nervous (well what's to be nervous of with no audience?) but mostly because my baby was so supportive and flattering.