Yes!

...."Prince Andrei seemed, and really was, an utterly different, new man. What had become of his ennui, his contempt for life, his disillusionment? Pierre was the only person to whom he could bring himself to speak frankly, and to him he revealed all that was in his heart, now gaily and boldly making plans reaching far into the future, saying he could not sacrifice his own happiness to the caprices of his father, declaring that he would either force his father to agree to the marriage, and like her, or dispense with his consent altogether; then marveling at the feeling which had taken possession of him, as something strange and apart, independent of himself." (War and Peace)



Good News! My little Misch is not a conceited, pretentious hipster, and does not judge me for being musically ignorant whenever she knows something that I don't! Also, I think she said she will not hate me after the show on the 1st of February. Last night I started getting excited about the show because we had practice after a longish break and instead of everything sounding like shit and being in a bad mood and disagreeable or just plain sick of it or like me, self hating and not up to my own standards, it went pretty well. And all four bands requested have confirmed for the night without a problem, it's all set. And we wrote a new song at the end (actually we have over ten songs not yet developed, it's frustrating) that sounds like a club hit with some Indian chords or melodies and I sing about Mischa's damp heat and go mmmm mmmm mmm which does, I admit, sound a little like Gwen but of course way better, heh. Because like the song MK put on my mix, ain't nobody that can sing like me :) Some people in my family lately teased me because they said I sing differently now than when I was younger but really I worked hard on breathing and just opening all vowels in general and letting a natural vibrato come instead of a fake sounding one or fake phrasing or any imitation of any singer much less one like oh, say, Beyonce or something horrible like that. I sang in the cover band a couple years ago to gain confidence and also practice singing any style, I purposefully agreed to sing almost any song the boys wanted, just to see if I could cover it decently. Now DM is a whole other thing, and really seems divine to me because the spacey, dance, lounge-ish sounds allow me to stretch and minimize words which appeals to my love for condensed meaning. Now the only question is whether to wear the burka for the show. I want to. It's my one flashy idea. It's either this show or another one, I'm going to wear a burka for at least one song. I'd like to wear it for the sorry song in which I sing "cut my tongue off" and other submissive phrases to my "master" so totally fitting for the burka. But I wonder how much they cost, and if it's hard to breathe through the cloth.