Wednesday, December 27, 2006
In our mansion there will be many rooms
When Mischa tells me she has to do her paperwork on the weekend, it feels me with such Freudian joy, that is to say it is a direct reminder of my mother. I really haven't even taken that many psychology classes, so my knowledge is random, incomplete, and mostly learned in personal settings, like the living room of my childhood home or my parents' bedroom, where they liked to lecture me about 'no sex before marriage' and 'my body is a temple' etc. As a teenager I was thoroughly annoyed by mom's therapist-talk (especially since she seemed unable to comprehend my normal modes of communication, and still to this day has to "reflect" my statements to verify comprehension, and often reflects incorrectly, and I give up), but after I left home and began attempting to have romantic and sexual relationships, which triggered major major panic and anxiety for me, I started taking some classes and reading a few books. And the rest I suppose I learned off the internet. Anyway, this is so much to say, abnormal psychology and sexuality are linked in my being, and I will never be attracted to normal (boring), healthy people. Of course, they can't be totally busted, or too deep in denial, cause what the fuck can you do with that besides stalk it? So this blog is a visual ode to personality disorders and hotness, and contains a link to an article that my brilliant little Mischa discovered that explores the relationship between borderlines and narcissists:
http://www.apa.org/monitor/mar04/mixing.html
Well the article delves into various parings, but those particular PDs are the two that interest me the most, obviously because I have traits of both and am attracted to both (can't resist the PTSD either). I come out more strongly on the narcissist side, thank fucking God, but I have been on the reverse (not fun), so really this whole subject is way more complicated than I have the energy to write about here, but these pictures should elaborate in the tiniest way, my meaning.
If you read the article you'll see it contains some advice for couples that have paired according to PD traits, but I have my own advice, and I think Dr. Karam concurs. My theory is not to avoid pairing in such powerful combinations, but to work it out in the bedroom. Well, not the bedroom per say. Technically, in an assortment of rooms. If all goes according to plan, someday we will have a mansion with several rooms dedicated to the treatment of various sicknessness, obsessions, and otherwise titillating neurosis. One room will definitely have padded walls, and Mischa will have to spend all night or even all weekend in there if she misbehaves. Or if I (Dr. Stefano), decide it would be good for her. Or even if she begs in the right way. The room will include restraints, syringes full of harmless or healthy medicine, white coats, latex gloves, and so on and so forth, hey use your own imagination! There will be other rooms also, especially a photography room....hmmmm what else?? What do you think Misch? What do you want? Tell me what you want, I'll do it, I'll get it. When you want it to hurt or when you want it to feel good, say so, if you only want it to feel good that's fine too, you see I'm quite flexible.
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and of course our mansion will regularly be confused as our fortress. to name just one, there is the widely sought after balance to be drawn from the combining of PDs - zigging meets zagging, in all the right places, and meaningful linking transpires in an unprecedented form. yet the founding wounds on both ends are similar enough to lay the groundwork for uniquely empathic connections that others attempting to trump would have the ill fate of paling in comparison to. (therefore refused). it seems as though you are particularly blessed in that you are on the cusp of PDs, and i of course am in full remission. this may account for our ability to bond with the passion and intensity of the PD'ed, while leaving behind the interpersonal turmoil and drama. a perfect fit, if you will. and surely, the meeting of these minds was meant to be, and to celebrate, rooms will be built and added as we please and are afforded. i wouldn't have it any other way.
ReplyDeletep.s. how could you forget the massage room?
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