What The Future Holds

Lately Michelle has been talking about moving to Philadelphia. She says we should consider it, not now, but in 4-5 years. She is being quite practical, as always. Michelle is a planner. Now that she has a job, she is focusing on retirement. We have both said that we'd like to own property, like people in other cities and states. It's not a possibility here, ever. If we stay here, our rent will just go up every year, while our salaries basically stay the same, and we'll have nothing to show for it at the end of it all. The problem is, I don't really believe in the future. Therefore, I am tentatively agreeing to the 5-year plan with the knowledge that anything could happen in that time. The world, "as we know it" is supposed to end in the year 2012. That makes sense to me, since the year is divisible by fours. We might not be alive in five! Or else, Brooklyn could be totally transformed, for sundry reasons. Who knows what shape the new world will take? Will the U.S. become a totalitarian state? Will China take us over? Will there be a world war III (it seems to be only a matter of time). I can't conceive of "five years from now." But I love NYC and Brooklyn. I am supposed to be here, and right now. Something is happening. Something is about to happen. I can't leave. I have to be a teacher here, and not in Philadelphia. I don't know if Michelle really wants to buy property or she thinks that I do. She is "materialistic," not in a bad way but in a practical way. She says she wants nicer things and a nicer apartment. I really want a backyard. She says that I "should feel poor," even though I feel rich. She says she really doesn't want to leave Brooklyn either. I said maybe we could move to Westchester? But I really want to stay in Brooklyn. Who knows what will happen, even in one year? No point in really dwelling on it.

"How could you steal medication from your mother who needs it?" A bad, bad thing to do. A bad person. A bad daughter. A bad girlfriend. Bad bad bad. What exactly is a conscience? My goals for 2009 include:

-quit smoking, tobacco and weed
-straight edge sober
-try to focus on breathing as much as possible
-acupuncture twice per month
-yoga twice per month

For New Years eve, Michelle and I are going to go on a quiet date. We will probably go see the movie, "Milk" and go out to dinner. Hopefully we can get acupuncture on New Years day, if the Brooklyn Acupunture Project is open.