Last night I dreamed that I found Wayne, my friend's deceased cat, who she loved more than anything. I found Wayne, and I couldn't wait to tell her that he was alive. In my dream, he had only been missing, and my friend had a feeling that he was still alive out there. I also found Tatiana, my cat. They came out of nowhere on a random street, and looked at each other, and did not hiss. They were living with a man in his house, but I decided to bring them both home. However, once I got them home, neither were happy. Tatiana hid a lot and I knew I was being too aggresive with her. I knew I should let her come to me. I returned Wayne to my friend, and I think she told me that he had also changed.
During the night, apparently I said to Michelle, in my sleep, "There are whole lives ahead of us." She asked what I meant, and I replied, "That's just how it is." She wrote it down, and told me this morning. I wish I could tell my friend that I saw her cat in my dream, but for some reason I'm being very stubborn in our silence. Usually, I would break it and apologize for whatever I did wrong. This time, I just know that she should apologize, but I'm not sure why. Either way, she insulted me numerous times and had a judgemental attitude toward me. Some of you, I have known for a long time, and we're not finished yet.
i dont think its such a mystery as to why youre being "stubborn." how many times can you be the 'bigger person' in a relationship? when do you finally decide enough's enough and to stand by YOU? i certainly think of you as someone who does own up to a mistake or wrongdoing or disrespect, even if it takes time... but once you realize an error, you own it. but sometimes there's just nothing to own up to, and it's the other who's being so small. sometimes the time comes that you just let them be and stay, small.
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