early retirement or pursue it all?

On my facebook profile, I recently wrote that I was "definitely not done making music" and that I plan to "do my own thing, somehow." Last night, however, I realized that I probably am done. That thought crept up on me after I made those claims, and today I am fairly sure that my days as a singer and band member are over. I was going to try to write stuff for Mark because he's willing to work over the internet - sending me files and me sending back my comments and suggestions - Brian told me he would "never work like that." He wanted me to go all the way to his stupid studio and meet at like 10pm. Of course, he stays up all night! Well, I can't live like that. Maybe if I were single, living on someone's couch, and didn't have a job. Which would never happen because I like security and sleeping at least 8 hours a night and eating regularly, etc. Anyway, Mark sent me a bunch of tracks, and there were about three that I thought had potential. So I started writing some lines, and telling him where I think things work or they don't work.

I like things to be extremely catchy but totally original. I don't like ugliness... don't like strange and jarring transitions... extensive noise and dissonance... I like a very strong melodic relationship between bass, guitar, and lyrical melody, and that's what I like about S-K, in additon to the singing. Anyways, it all starts with a good beat and bassline. Without that, the song isn't going anywhere, no matter how much cool shit you pile on top of it.