Lujuria called out to me at Pathmark and so I took his picture. I felt extremely attracted to those eyes with their long lashes. I wanted to make monkey business but he turned out to be hard hearted as well as having that type of physique. Anyway ...... last night practice was great, despite exhaustion. We wrote three new songs. I wrote almost complete lyrics on the spot, it feels really easy at this point. I guess my lifetime of creative writing classes and verbal vomit exercises are good for something now, well everything that has tortured me is turning out to be an asset, and I feel happy. Well, not "happy". But a certain desperate terror has faded ..... thank god because everyone deserves a break from misery now and then. Well maybe some people don't deserve a break, but I do hehe. I'm sure sometime soon it will all become not good enough and I'll go back to crying in public, but for now I'm just enjoying the relative satisfaction.
I'm leaving for MN today on a 730 flight out of LGA. Going to see my whole family on my dad's side, including ninety five year old Grandma, cousin dying of brain tumor, aunt with diabetes, many cousins I don't know very well at all, a pregnant one, one with a new baby .... I'm so glad I have my camera so I can be antisocial in a helpful way. I wish I had a xanax or something for my flight. I do have War and Peace. Happy Dead Turkey Day. Oh - not turkey below. Just shoes. I work for a shoe company in real life.
how the hell are people supposed to find shoes that way? are the bins sorted by size at least??
ReplyDeletehope you had fun in mn. u going up there for christmas, too?