I am so tired today I keep forgetting to breathe. There are a number of physical problems affecting me actually. The first one is fatigue and it is my own fault. I'm at the front desk. When I try to smile at people it feels hard to move my face.
Friday night (I am so mad at myself) I had fun plans and had even double booked myself then I got home from work and felt so tired that I couldn't go back out and I stood everyone up, missed the Services show, and did it all to "be kind to myself" because I realized I was pmsing, but then look how I toss myself like a rag into the new week.
I don't have anything to say. I am basically okay with everything. I don't need sex anymore I have conquored my drive. I also don't need love because my heart has turned into macaroni and cheese. So eat it bitch, I don't care.
I'm lactose intolerant, can't do mac n' cheese, sorry.
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This weekend was busy and uneventful at the same time. Last night I forked out $40 to get into a club because, allegedly, there was a show planned that included Snoop, Keysha Cole, Lil Wayne, etc. but NO the club fucking ripped us OFF and I'm pissed and I hate fucking hip hop right now. There's no fucking integrity in the music anymore.
I've abandoned jazz for so long, I need to go back. That music is real. The musicians are real. It's visceral. It means something. Fuck this stolen hip-hop shit. All they do is steal beats from the days when people actually had musical talent, and then rap about dumb ass materialistic bullshit. I hate them.
Now I'm sitting here at school after having only had 2 hrs of sleep because of that lame ass club.
This is more like an email than a comment. Hey, your birthday is soon.
Damn I'm sorry your show was lame. Keysha Cole had a nice little single. I hate materialism in rap, totally don't listen to that unless the beat makes me shake my ass. People don't understand. The beat and the bass are everything. But I really hate Jay Z right now. He has nothing to say and his girlfriend is so annoying. I cannot listen to her, that shrill maniac voice singing about how cool she thinks she is. I also hate Kanye West, loser. I like to dance and not be repulsed by stupidity, why is it so hard?
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