coming back down to earth

let's be honest, what i said about writing a hit is pretty silly. i have a little talent but not that much and i am not that lucky either. it's okay though. i don't even really care. also, what i said about it not being worth it to pray and ask god to help me (want to find happiness and peace via total sobriety) (or even believe that it's possible) is not necessarily true either. it isn't only chemical.